Queen of the "S" word
I am a pessimist in real life, but I will take a comedy show or a funny movie any day. Not a fan of drama, science fiction, suspense, or any other genre. Instead, I always default to comedies without giving it a second thought. Those who are close to me know that I am obsessed with a famous comedy show from the nineties. And by famous I mean the best show ever of course, (which I am currently re-watching for the 5th time). You know the one I'm talking about, the one and only "Friends".
If you don't know much about Friends...well, I can't help you there. (I'll pray for you though 😂). There's one particular character from the group of friends that I find the most entertaining and is honestly my favorite one: Chandler Bing. He is awkward and inadequate in every way possible, and I love that about him. However, possibly my favorite trait and the reason why I believe that I identify so much with him, it's the one other thing he is known for: his relentless sarcasm.
I mean, this guy has a gift! He will not budge, finding a joke in any circumstance, feeding off his own inadequacies and other people's mistakes and flaws like a pro. And even though it does get a bit annoying sometimes, that's the charm that he brings to the group, making the show ten times funnier.
Okay, I promise I have a point with all this. The reason why I wanted to write about Chandler is because he represents something that is part of me. As I grew up and my environments and life experiences continued to shape my personality, I started to strengthen that one particular trait without really realizing it. I would use it as a defense mechanism sometimes, and other times it would be my ice breaker or simply my default in a conversation. Now at 25 years of age I can take an honest, introspective look at myself and realize that it has become second (if not first) nature. I am the queen of sarcasm. In many ways, I am Chandler.
And if I'm being completely honest with myself first, and also with others, I gotta say that I'm not too mad about that.
Therein lies the problem.
I am not saying that every now and then a little mean-funny type of remark is necessarily evil. What I'm saying is that it's become such a big part of me that I can't seem to have a regular conversation without a little (or a lot) of sarcasm. Many times I don't even realize that I'm doing it! Hence, it's become the way people perceive me. I mean, ask anyone who knows me, and they'l tell you that I wouldn't be Rebeca without a little mocking/sarcasm every now and then. And even in days when I realize that I'm being off the charts cynical, and try to contain my words, my mind still runs rampant like an unsupervised kid at a candy store. And the thing is, I wasn't created to just be this. I could be witty, funny, mean, sarcastic, critical, straightforward...and whatever else, but I was created to reflect God's personality and purpose, above anything and everything else. This is not to say that God can't use my wits and my straightforwardness (not sure about the sarcasm), but beyond that, I want people to see Him and his work in my life when they look at me. I don't want to be known for my sarcastic remarks . I want to be known as evidence of what grace can do in a person.
I am abdicating my throne.
If you don't know much about Friends...well, I can't help you there. (I'll pray for you though 😂). There's one particular character from the group of friends that I find the most entertaining and is honestly my favorite one: Chandler Bing. He is awkward and inadequate in every way possible, and I love that about him. However, possibly my favorite trait and the reason why I believe that I identify so much with him, it's the one other thing he is known for: his relentless sarcasm.
I mean, this guy has a gift! He will not budge, finding a joke in any circumstance, feeding off his own inadequacies and other people's mistakes and flaws like a pro. And even though it does get a bit annoying sometimes, that's the charm that he brings to the group, making the show ten times funnier.
Okay, I promise I have a point with all this. The reason why I wanted to write about Chandler is because he represents something that is part of me. As I grew up and my environments and life experiences continued to shape my personality, I started to strengthen that one particular trait without really realizing it. I would use it as a defense mechanism sometimes, and other times it would be my ice breaker or simply my default in a conversation. Now at 25 years of age I can take an honest, introspective look at myself and realize that it has become second (if not first) nature. I am the queen of sarcasm. In many ways, I am Chandler.
And if I'm being completely honest with myself first, and also with others, I gotta say that I'm not too mad about that.
Therein lies the problem.
I am not saying that every now and then a little mean-funny type of remark is necessarily evil. What I'm saying is that it's become such a big part of me that I can't seem to have a regular conversation without a little (or a lot) of sarcasm. Many times I don't even realize that I'm doing it! Hence, it's become the way people perceive me. I mean, ask anyone who knows me, and they'l tell you that I wouldn't be Rebeca without a little mocking/sarcasm every now and then. And even in days when I realize that I'm being off the charts cynical, and try to contain my words, my mind still runs rampant like an unsupervised kid at a candy store. And the thing is, I wasn't created to just be this. I could be witty, funny, mean, sarcastic, critical, straightforward...and whatever else, but I was created to reflect God's personality and purpose, above anything and everything else. This is not to say that God can't use my wits and my straightforwardness (not sure about the sarcasm), but beyond that, I want people to see Him and his work in my life when they look at me. I don't want to be known for my sarcastic remarks . I want to be known as evidence of what grace can do in a person.
I am abdicating my throne.
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